When harshest words come in the open just to up and tear your down
Without attempting understanding, always harshly upper-handing
Truth is standing and demanding take the cushion from her landing
Watch the world itself come down on her, we wash our hands clean
The evidence has passed their eyes, but sadly nothing was seen
It’s a tragic combination of unknowing trepidation
When ignorance denies the right of bringing explanation
You make a point to bring the “Word” to stand as your single axis
But you take it, bend it on me like your first batting practice
Another loveless beating, I’m no stranger to mistreating
From the mouth you use to so profess the truth you are misleading
Every day you took me down with you
Just a kid who frowned at you
And now I have confounded you? And knocked you on YOUR ass.
Though you’ve never beat me physically, the marks are deeper than you see
They’re scarred with pink hypocrisy, and stitched with time that’s passed
I’m sorry if I broke your white picket fence
And wrecked your social scene at the club with your friends
And your right handed husband says to “make no amends”
I’m just trying to let you know who I am
And even if go in life “change my mind”
This wasn’t just a flippant choice to kill some time
But you’re supposed to see into this heart of mine
And not let go
I love you Hugh. I miss you so much.
ReplyDeletelove and miss you too, megs.
Delete<3 and *hugs*
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DeleteWe have always wanted the best for you. Home, education, family, future, eternal life. We love you. The only thing we stated to you is that you cannot live in this house, and we will not finacially support your lifestyle. You grew up learning what we believe and know to be truth. You seperated yourself from us. We realize the new world order hates God. I read the link. No wisdom there. Doesn't even rate a response. Heard it all before. This poor guy and his followers have no idea what the "book" is trying to tell them. Its about how much God loves us, not hates us. Do it your way, you always do, and good luck. Happy birthday. We miss you.
ReplyDeleteHow incredibly "brave" of you to put this on here, instead of letting my mom respond to the email that I sent to her. I guess since this was titled to the both of you, you have a right to respond. So you want to do this on the world wide web? ok. You want to say that this was my choice? The only two options are nature or nurture. You make it clear that it absolutely must be nurture so why don't you pick up a damn mirror. Why don't you go to a Christian book store and look into the "causes" of why someone such as myself might "choose to live this lifestyle"...and then put some blame on yourself...because I've done a boatload of research on both sides, but I seriously doubt that you have or will. I absolutely grew up knowing what you believe. You went to church...other than that you put me down, yelled at me, blamed me, and squelched any self esteem or value that I had at the time. Your words were and are mean, and your "helpful informative letters" to me were cruel. Always. You made it VERY clear that you didn't want me in the house last year after my mom repeatedly asked me to come home; before I got there, and obviously into the stay. So what I believe is that this was a matter of absolute convenience for you to eradicate me from the situation. I have thanked you for everything that you have ever helped me with financially, I certainly would have been very hard-pressed and beyond without it...and with that said, I can not wait for the day when I actually make it in music (which you clearly don't believe in as I had to cry in the back of the car, trying to convince the both of you that I was actually good enough to be chosen in a competition of hundreds) so that I can write a huge check to completely relieve myself from the overwhelming feeling of owing ANYTHING to you.
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